Starting Over After a Divorce

Starting over after divorce is one of the most hardest tasks that you will have 2 deal with in life! Expecially if you are a single M💞M raising kids by yourself without a job or any income, & is even harder without a vehicle!
Even though the only reason that my soon 2 be ex-husband has our only means of transportation, which is a 4 door Dodge Ram Truck, with a V8 engine, that he has already dogged out so much it's not running because something is wrong with the engine, is because I let him claim me & my kids in his taxes, which he would have had 2 pay in $300, had I NOT let him claim us. I didn't want the truck because I knew that it was only gonna be a matter of time before it broke down, & I knew that without a job, there was absolutely no way in hell that I would be able to have it fixed. The power steering pump went out before he blew the motor up in it.
Now without a job & looking, while I am trying 2 start my nursing classes in August, I am really stressed out & struggling emotionally, mentally, & physically trying 2 get back on my feet & get my life together! Which is almost extremely impossible 2 do without any $, no job, expecially no vehicle, & having to depend on my Mom any time I need a ride because I don't have any gas $ to give her & she damn sure can't afford 2 help me because she herself is on a fixed income. Idk where her $ goes because she lives in my yard that I am having 2 pay rent for, she pays $100 on a light bill that runs $280 a month, her cell phone bill, storage unit, & a cable bill, is the only bills she has.
My kids bilogical father died about 2-3 years ago. He was drinking & driving when he crashed in2 & killed a mother & her 2 daughters. Not that he has been any help raising my kids anyway because I admit I wouldn't let him be a Dad. I told him that he has 1 of 2 options. He can quit drinking & be a Dad, or he can keep drinking & not see his kids because I would be dammed if he was gonna be driving around drunk, which he loved 2 do & always did because as most drunks do they swear that they can drive better drunk than sober, & end up killing my kids & someone else's 2!
Before he even died, I always told my kids that drinking & driving was gonna be the way he died & when he did he was gonna end up taking the life of an innocent person & their kids. 
I always told my kids that "When he's drunk he's not responsible for hisself much less them 2" & "I Will NOT & Will NEVER Sacrifice Their Lives 4 Him 2 Be a Dad 2 Them"  I also told my kids that "They Are Better Off Without A Dad, than 2 Have an Alcoholic Dad!"
So, needless 2 say he has never been any help & he has never bought them anything @ all, not even a birthday card.
I hate 2 say it but he has done more for my kids being dead than he has ever done 4 them when he was alive! I get a survivors benefit check from social security that is $638 a month & that is my ONLY INCOME, so by the time that I pay my lot rent $160, my light bill $280, my cell phone bill, which is prepaid, & my direct TV cable bill, which I just found out that you are pretty much having 2 pay the bill before you can watch it, meaning that it's pretty much prepared, by the time I pay all my bills, I don't have a $1 left.
I didn't have any $ put back or saved up. That's why I stress the point 2 every woman, expecially single M💞Ms, that it's extremely important 2 keep a cash stash, savings account, some means of $ stashed away so that when shit turns out bad, you have to leave a spouse (divorce), or if you need 2 get out of an abusive or toxic relationship, you will be ok because you have some $ put back 4 a rainy day so that you & your kids don't have 2 struggle, you have some $ to find a job or provide gas $ 4 anyone that helps you, 2 have $ for things such as your phone bill so that you can have communication for job offers ect, & most importantly so that you &/or your kids don't have 2 struggle or do without while you are looking 4 a job & trying 2 get back on your feet!
I have 2 admit if I had a $ stash I would not be struggling as bad right now.
In this stage of my life I am not only struggling but I am so overwhelmed bc I have no $, I have no job, I have no vehicle, & I am stuck until I can find a job.  

* 1st I have 2 find a job. Putting in applications. Then of course I am gonna need gas $ 2 attend any interviews. Every time I interview I have gas expense of $10-$20 + the $ to go over the Causeway bridge which has went up to $5 (because I live in Franklinton Louisiana & most job interviews are in New Orleans Louisiana).


* Then I'm gonna have 2 find a way 2 get gas $, 2 get back & fourth 2 & from work, because when I do find a job it will be any where from 2-3 weeks before I get my 1st pay check, because most companies hold your check for a week or more.

* Then I am going 2 have 2 save up enough $ 2 buy a car & get it legal (Tax, Title, License, & possibly an inspection sticker).

What I stress about more than anything is having 2 depend on people to help me. 
Which in my situation the only person I have 2 help me is my mom, because my daddy lives so far away from me in Virginia. 
I worry about depending on my mom because not only was she a horrible mom when I was growing up, she is extremely selfish & lazy! 

With that being said I prey 2 hopefully soon get a job, get a vehicle, & be able 2 work & start my nursing classes.

It's extremely hard having 2 start all the way back over after a divorce. I THANK GOD, that I had my trailer (mobile home) before I got married, & I also THANK GOD that my trailer (mobile home) is PAID FOR, because 2 be completely honest I wouldn't be able 2 afford 2 pay rent. $638 a month is almost impossible 2 live on, not counting the $ it is gonna cost 4 gas 2 get 2 however many interviews until I can find a job & the gas expense 2 be able to make it back & fourth 2 work until I get my 1st check.

ALWAYS HAVE A CASH STASH THAT ONLY YOU KNOW ABOUT! 

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